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Do not give up on yourself

This post is dedicated to everyone who is struggling with the weight they’ve put on and who do not feel good about themselves anymore. Here’s my message for y’all. You’re not alone. We will get through this, together. Just don’t give up yet. You can, and you will beat this and get back in shape again, if that’s not the motive, then you will become fit and healthy again, just don’t give up on yourself.

I have been struggling with my weight since last one year. I know, you might think “but he ain’t obese, he looks fine”, but I’m not. I’m opening up today, because today I realized that I was getting more depressed, day by day because I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror anymore, for it just reminded me how fit I used to be. My weight used to range between 55-60 till 2015. But then 2016 turned out to be a very depressive year, and since then I’ve not been the same. My current weight is 83. In medical terms, I’m almost obese, which my body is not accepting and I’ve been facing a lot of health issues because of that. I tried to get back in shape again, I failed at it. I tried again, I failed again. This cycle went on and on until finally I decided to give up. I was scared to hit the gym again because I was afraid I’ll fail again, and because of that I never went to the gym for almost 3 months, even after paying all the fees. I was afraid to fall. I am STILL afraid, to fall, but then I recalled some wise words of Alfred, which he told to Bruce when he almost gave up on everything, “why do we fall, sir? So that we can learn to pick ourselves up.” And today was the day to pick myself up again. I went to the gym today, I was still depressed when I entered the gym, thinking this wouldn’t change anything, I’m going to fail again. But then I started working out, and it all started to come back to me, the positivity. Once I was done, after a sweaty hour of work out, everything felt different, I felt positive. Now I realize, it was not about the weight I’ve put on, it was all about what I felt about myself. Now I know, that I can change this, that I CAN and I WILL be fit again. I don’t care about the physique, it’s all about staying fit and healthy.

What I want you to take from this is the positivity. It’s all about that ONE STEP which you are hesitating to take, because of the fear of failure. We all fail, and that’s how we learn, that’s how we grow. Don’t fear the failure. TAKE THAT ONE STEP, AND EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE. Trust me. You’re amazing, and I have faith in you. You can do anything you want. It’s just about your will power and that one step which you need to take.

#YouAreAmazing #DontGiveUp

#YouCanDoIt #LoveYourself

-Abhishek Gupta

Read more about the article Waqt

Waqt

Kuch kehna tha, aur ye
bojh e dil jo main Na Jane
Kabse banjaro ki tarah lekar phir raha hoon,
Usse zara halka karna tha.

Ke ek waqt tha,
jab teri palko pe aaye
har aansoon ko moti
samjh zameen par na
kabhi main girne deta tha.

Ke ek waqt tha,
Tere lafzon se nikle har alfaaz
Shehad se meethe lagte te,
jo mere in kaano me
din o raat,
goonjte rehte the.

Ke ek waqt tha,
Teri wo muskaan, aur wo haya,
mujhe dekh kar, ghayal sa kar deti
thi mujhe aur mere is dil ko.

Ke ek waqt tha,
Jab tere waaste is
duniya se lad sa jata tha.
Tere chehre par gar
gham ke saya bhi dikh jaye,
Toh kuch dar sa jata tha.
Anmol thi tu mere liye,
Tujhe mehfooz rakhne ke liye,
Kuch bhi kar sa jata tha.
Ke ek waqt tha,
Jab tere waaste is
duniya se lad sa jata tha.

Wo waqt kuch aur tha,
Ye waqt kuch aur hai. x2

Ab tere us soorat se mohabbat
nahi par beintehaan nafrat si ho gayi hai.
Kuch pyar baaki hai, aur shayad humesa rahega,
Par ab tere bina jeene ki aadat si ho gayi hai.
Tanha chhoda tune, uska gham nahi mujhe.
Gham toh hai is baat ka, ke is dil me,
mohabbat ke khilaaf tu ek beej is bo gayi hai.

Arre ja, tujhe kab roka tha Maine.
Ek bar bol kar to dekhti, par aise kyun
khud ko mujhse paraai si kar gayi.
Mujhe vafa e ishq ka paath padhaati thi.
Khud yoon aisi bewafai si kar gayi?

Bade shiddat se mobbat ki thi,
Par ab nafrat bhi dekh tu meri.
Aakhri saans tak, mudkar na
dekhunga main ab tujhe
Ab nafrat bhi tu dekh meri.

Mar gayi hai, jo mohabbat
mere dil me thi.
Aur uski qaatil tu hai.
Tere hath mere khoon se sane hai.
Dekh apne hathon ko,
Aur jee. Ye hi teri saza hai.
Par kabhi kisi aur ka dil yoon na todna,
Bas itni si meri ek aakhri raza hai.

Ke ek waqt tha,
Jab tere waaste is
duniya se lad sa jata tha.

Wo waqt kuch aur tha,
Ye waqt kuch aur hai.

-Abhishek Gupta

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Past

I wonder,
If you ever think of me.
Do you even remember my voice?
The way I used to be, around you?
Do you ever get that sense of euphoria,
thinking about OUR happy memories?
I wonder, if you even care,
that I’m even alive or not.

Like I always say,
It’s not the bad memories,
Which fucks you up from inside,
It’s the happy ones, because,
you know it’ll never happen again.

The moments we shared,
the happiness I felt, I know,
It’ll never come back to me.
I know I will never be able to
hold your hands again, ever.
I know, it’s all over now.
It’s been 6 years, after all.
The memories, it has started
to fade away, with time.
Your voice sounds like
a stranger to me now.
I know, it’s all over now.
It’s been 6 years, after all.

I’ve been carrying these dead
feelings for a long time now.
I guess the time has finally arrived.
The time to bury these memories,
these feelings, the agony and anguish,
which burns within this heart.

Today, I saw you with your love.
I saw, how happy you were,
Exactly like you used to be with me.
Whilst I was still struggling to
heal and mend this broken heart.
I believe, the time has come,
to end it, once and for all.

Finally,
I’m leaving my past,
where it belongs.

// in the past //

-Abhishek Gupta

Duniya

Jal rahi hai duniya saari,
Jal rahi har aatma.
Dhal raha dhundla sooraj,
Kho gaya hai aasamaan.

Zindagi se maut khele,
Maut kiske hath ma.
Insaan hi insaan ka dusman,
Maut meri zaat ma.

Kaahe ki ye jhooti izzat,
Kaahe ka ye dhong hai.
Betiyon ko devi kehte,
Ye vaakya hi ek vyang.

Ruk ja insaan, dar ja insaan,
Tera waqt bhi aayega,
Tere karmo ke koo phal tu,
Is janam hi paayega.

Jal rahi hai duniya saari,
Jal rahi har aatma.
Dhal raha dhundla sooraj,
Kho gaya hai aasamaan.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Nami

Tu hai, phir bhi kyun khalti hai teri kami.
Sab waqt ka taqaaza hai.
Mehsoos hua ye mujhe aaj,
jab aayi mere in aankhon mein nami.

-Abhishek Gupta

Here

I am here.
Right here.
Where I was.
Standing still.
Waiting for you.
To look back once.
But you won’t.
You always,
used to say,
life goes on.
But mine,
It stopped.
I am here.
Right here.

-Abhishek Gupta.

It’s been awhile

It’s been awhile now,
That you’ve been gone.
I sleep on the same bed
on which we used to, together.
It’s the same bed, but,
I don’t know why it feels
just a little bit bigger now.
I still water the plants, which grew
from the seeds, that you had sown.
It’s been awhile now,
That you’ve been gone.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Toy

I, sometimes, wonder.
If you still, see my photos,
regretting, what you did to me.

But then I realize,
I was a mere toy,
for you, with whom,
you played and
moved on to
another one.

// t o y //

-Abhishek Gupta.

Letter

To,
The person whom I once loved.

I have nothing but hatred in my heart, for you, but underneath this charade of hatred, there’s still some love left, for you, and it always will.

With love,
Abhishek Gupta.