I know who’s my
genuine friend
and who’s not.
I know who stood
by my side when
I had hit rock bottom,
and I know who did not.
It’s so strange, those
who who always used
to claim to have my back
were never to be found
when I needed them.
So I know, who’s
my genuine friend,
and who’s not.
-Abhishek Gupta
So many people, whom I
used to talk to all the time.
So many people, with whom I
used to spend so much of time.
We treat each others like
complete strangers now.
The sad is part is, nothing
went wrong between us.
We simply grew apart.
We grew so apart, that now,
it feels like we never
even knew each other.
It’s like we never even met.
-Abhishek Gupta
People forget you.
That is how people are.
Then they’ll remember you.
Out of the blue,
they’ll reach out to you.
They’ll talk to you,
and tell you how much
they’ve missed you.
And once they start feeling
better, after talking to you.
They’ll forget about you,
again, in a blink of an eye.
This is an endless cycle.
It goes on and on and on.
We just get used to it.
So we never complain.
Because, ah there’s no
“because” to this thing.
We simply get used to
of being treated like this.
Because, that is
how people are.
-Abhishek Gupta.
There’s a war brewing inside my head.
I’m so tired of this never ending sadness.
No more tears are left in my eyes to be shed.
To fight or not to fight?
I’m consumed by this darkness.
This darkness is getting stronger,
and my light is losing this fight.
I need to find the light.
Where’s the light?
Where’s the light?
I need to end this.
I need to know if I’m still sane.
Somebody, please stop this.
I don’t know how to stop this.
I feel all my efforts are going in vain.
Somebody, Please tell me.
How do I stop this pain?
How do I stop this pain?
-Abhishek Gupta
My heart aches, every time
I think that you’ll never know
how much love I have for you,
in my heart. You look for this kind of love
everywhere else, in everyone else,
but you never look for it, in me.
I guess I’ll never be the one for you,
and I’m tired of being treated
like an option. I guess this is
where we part our ways.
The love you crave for,
was right in front of you.
If only you’d have opened
your eyes and seen it, but it’s okay.
This is how life works.
It’s time, for me to bid
you a final goodbye.
-Abhishek Gupta
Do you know,
how exhausting it is?
You always be the one who others want you to be. You try to keep them happy. Not everyone always wants to listen to your rant all the time. But what if that’s who you are? What if, you’re just a morose soul, who just can’t stay happy for long, no matter how hard you try. So eventually, you stop telling people how you feel, because even though they never say they don’t want to listen how sad your life is, their eyes tells everything. So you, stop venting. You become a new person every time you meet someone. You pretend to be happy, hoping one day you’ll forget that you’re pretending. Then you come back home and look into the mirror, and see, how lonely you are. All these people around you, and the truth is some of them actually do care about you, yet you feel hollow and incomplete inside. Then you force yourself to sleep, only to wake up the next day to be that someone whom you’re not, because that’s how life works. It’s easy to tell “don’t be sad” “everything will be fine eventually”, but the truth is, for some people, it’ll never be fine. That “eventually” will never come.
Do you know,
how exhausting it is,
to live?
But you’ve got to live,
because your maa didn’t
raise a coward, a quitter.
You’ve got to live.
You’ve got to fight.
-Abhishek Gupta
I get it.
You really loved
that person.
But that person
was toxic for you.
So you had to
let that person go.
Sometimes,
we need to push
away the people
we love, because
of their toxic nature.
Sometimes,
we need to hurt
ourselves a bit,
in order to live
a better life.
-Abhishek Gupta
इस अजनबी से शहर में,
इस अजनबी का सफ़र।
ना तुझे मेरी ख़बर,
ना मुझे तेरी ख़बर।
-Abhishek Gupta.
Ever woke up in the middle of the night, after a dream in which you were still together with that person who broke your heart and crushed it? You were happy in that dream. But then you wake up smiling, and after a few seconds you realise it was just a dream and then the bitter memories hit you back, it hits you real hard and then, you just breakdown in the middle of the night. Sobbing uncontrollably, until you get so exhausted that you fall asleep, again.
It breaks you from inside.
-Abhishek Gupta
How have you been?
Let’s catch up,
have some wine,
and conversate,
about how we always
trying to impersonate,
and trying to be
someone we’re not.
We are slowly
becoming
who we hate.
Life’s been hell lately,
but we tell everyone
it’s going great.
My mind, right now, is in
a pretty messed up state.
But I’m holding on, somehow,
telling myself to wait.
Wait for something good to happen,
something which’ll really be great.
Which’ll pull me out of
this miserable state.
But Hey,
how have YOU been?
Let’s catch up,
have some wine,
and conversate.
-Abhishek Gupta