Abhishek Gupta

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Past

I wonder,
If you ever think of me.
Do you even remember my voice?
The way I used to be, around you?
Do you ever get that sense of euphoria,
thinking about OUR happy memories?
I wonder, if you even care,
that I’m even alive or not.

Like I always say,
It’s not the bad memories,
Which fucks you up from inside,
It’s the happy ones, because,
you know it’ll never happen again.

The moments we shared,
the happiness I felt, I know,
It’ll never come back to me.
I know I will never be able to
hold your hands again, ever.
I know, it’s all over now.
It’s been 6 years, after all.
The memories, it has started
to fade away, with time.
Your voice sounds like
a stranger to me now.
I know, it’s all over now.
It’s been 6 years, after all.

I’ve been carrying these dead
feelings for a long time now.
I guess the time has finally arrived.
The time to bury these memories,
these feelings, the agony and anguish,
which burns within this heart.

Today, I saw you with your love.
I saw, how happy you were,
Exactly like you used to be with me.
Whilst I was still struggling to
heal and mend this broken heart.
I believe, the time has come,
to end it, once and for all.

Finally,
I’m leaving my past,
where it belongs.

// in the past //

-Abhishek Gupta

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Fading Away

I can see you fading away,
like the dimming flame of
that candle, which has reached
its bottom and is now going to
submit itself to the darkness.

I can see you fading away,
like the memory of that
old rusted, broken car,
which I once saw on
the highway, abandoned.

I can see you fading away,
like my zest for playing guitar,
which is kept at the corner
of my room, which sometimes
peeps and tries to remind me
of its existence, which I tend
to ignore most of the time,
because, time is what, I have not.

I can see you fading away,
but I’m trying hard not to
let go of you, for you’re
the pillar of my existence.
Poetry, my zest for writing,
I can see you,
fading away,
from me.

-Abhishek Gupta.

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Survivor

I am standing at this side of the isle,
And I can see you, going away.
There’s nothing I can do, to stop you.
It’d would be something similar to
Me trying to not let the sand, in my fist, fall down.
See, here’s the thing, even if I try, I know,
It, the sand, is going to vanish in some time.

I don’t know, how to react.
I don’t know, how to enact.
I won’t be fine, well,
that I know, for the fact.
But how good I am
at burying my feelings,
deep inside my chest, alive.
Only I, know that.

But you know what,
I am exhausted now.
I’m tired of putting
that mask, on my face.
That mask of “I’m okay”.
Masquerading,
that I’m strong.
Whilst I’m not.

Consumed by the dark, I am.
Broken inside, yet alive, I am.
Maybe beyond fixing, aloof, I am.

But worry not, about me.
Alone, I might be,
But lonely,
I am not.

I know,
how strong,
I am.
However
my life is,
here’s
the thing,
Alive,
I am.

// survivor //

-Abhishek Gupta

Maanjhi

Ek naav si hi hoti hai ye zindagi.
Jis disha me le jana chaaho,
Us disha mein hi ye jayegi.
Toofan aane par ladkhadayegi,
Par thik se sambhaalo toh
Sambhal bhi jayegi.
Ek naav si hi hoti hai ye zindagi.

Aapne dusron ki kashti ko
doobte zarur dekha hoga.
Par unki kashti doobi kyunki
Wo usse sambhaal na paaye.
Aur us nazaare ke dar se
Agar aap is vishal samandar
Ki sair ko na nikle,
toh manjhi kaise kehlaoge?

Darr sabko lagta hai,
par dar se darkar agar
Aap pehle hi haar maan loge,
Toh ye zindagi kaise jiyoge?

Ye zindagi tujhe girayegi,
Is zindagi ka dastur yahi hai.
Par gir kar ruk jana,
Ye tera dastur nahi hai.

Uth, badh, par ghabra kar na ruk.
Nikaal kashti aur bhid un lehron se.
Takra, ladkhada, par haar na maan,
Aur jeet kar aa.

Ek naav si hi hoti hai ye zindagi.
Jis disha me le jana chaaho,
Us disha mein hi ye jayegi.

-Abhishek Gupta

Nami

Tu hai, phir bhi kyun khalti hai teri kami.
Sab waqt ka taqaaza hai.
Mehsoos hua ye mujhe aaj,
jab aayi mere in aankhon mein nami.

-Abhishek Gupta

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Patthar Dil Insaan

Agar tab hum nadaan na hote.
Agar tab zindagi me aaye
wo toofan na hote.
Agar tab sath wo kuch
galat insaan na hote.
Nazarandaaz na kar paye jise,
Hue waise kuch apmaan na hote.
Toh shayad aaj hum logo
Ki nazron me yoon patthar dil
Insaan na hote.

Agar hume na mile hote wo dhoke.
kiye te Kasme vaade ke rahenge
Hum sath humesa, ek hoke.
Par ant me hua wahi na,
Ke hume akele sab sehna pada,
Kabhi hass ke, toh kabhi ro ke.

Ishq ki baat nahi kar raha hoon.

Pyar ka matlab sirf ishq nahi hota hai.
Pyar ke toh Anek prakaar ke hote hai.

Koi behen bankar,
Toh koi bhai bankar,
Koi dost bankar,
Koi mehboob bankar pyar deta.

Par jab in rishto ki dor toot jati hai na.
Toh is gham ko baant ne wala
Sath mein, Koi na rehta.

Shayad isliye log patthar dil ban jate hai.
Galti unki nahi, wo toh bas, apne aap ko
Us taklif ke samandar se bachaate hai.
Us taklif ke samandar se bachaate hai.

Aur ant me baat wahi pe aati hai.
Agar tab hum nadaan na hote.
Agar tab zindagi me aaye
wo toofan na hote.
Agar tab sath wo kuch
galat insaan na hote.
Nazarandaaz na kar paye jise,
Hue waise kuch apmaan na hote.
Toh shayad aaj hum logo
Ki nazron me yoon patthar dil
Insaan na hote.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Barely Alive

Today I saw a man dying.
After he was gone,
I saw him and his eyes.
They were looking at me,
open wide.
My eyes, too, are open.
But I’m dead inside.

That’s the difference.
He’s actually dead, and,
I’m barely alive.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Here

I am here.
Right here.
Where I was.
Standing still.
Waiting for you.
To look back once.
But you won’t.
You always,
used to say,
life goes on.
But mine,
It stopped.
I am here.
Right here.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Smile

Don’t you dare, let anyone,
take that smile away from you.
No matter how broke you are.
No matter how lonely you feel.
No matter how gloomy life becomes.
Don’t lose that smile.
Don’t you dare, lose it.

When the darkness will consume,
you, your life and your heart.
When your mind will be foreshadowed
by thoughts sick and grim.

That smile, will act as your
Knight in the shining armour.
Because, when nothing in
your life will make sense,
and you’ll feel there’s no
point staying here, in this
world filled with humans
whose hearts are so
corrupt that even the devil
would think twice before
making a deal with them.

Your smile, it will remind,
you and the people around,
that one should never give up,
because of the people around,
because they don’t even matter.

What matters, in the end,
is you, and your happiness.

Don’t you dare, let anyone,
take that smile away from you.
Smile, even in your darkest times.
Because your smile might give,
someone else the strength to fight.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Tanha

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लोग आते है, और पन्नों पर अपना नाम लिख,
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