There used to be a time when I had
someone in my life whom I used to
ask to send me voice notes, because
that person’s beautiful voice used to
calm down all the turmoils inside my head.
But sadly, people change with time.
Their voice might not change, but they
change. And when people change, no matter
how much you used to love them, you won’t
even feel like listening to their voice again.
-Abhishek Gupta
I’ve lost so many people in my life, whom I loved from the core of my heart, that now I’ve become numb.
I’m not saying I’m saint and that I never made mistakes. I made mistakes, I overreacted in situations which could’ve been handled maturely, but I paid a heavy toll for my sensitive nature. I lost friends, who were precious to me more than myself.
But I tried to mend things, even though I was partly at fault. I decided to give them my love again, I tried to mend everything, but they refused it. Their ego didn’t let them accept their mistakes, so I ended up being hurt, all over again.
So yes, now, I don’t feel anything when I cut off people from my life, or if people cut me off from their life, because I’ve had enough of it, people playing with my feelings. My heart, now, is an abyss of nothingness. So those friends who ask me all the time, why did I change? Y’all are the reason I became what I am today.
-Abhishek Gupta
It fills my heart with joy,
When I see my friends,
Succeeding in life.
It fills my heart with pride,
When I see my friends,
Winning in life.
But, it would be a lie,
That I feel joyous, all the time,
For, the truth is, I don’t.
I don’t lie, for I can’t,
I’m not happy, not because,
I see people living their dreams,
But, because, I see, myself,
Still standing, at the same place,
where I stood, a year ago,
and have moved a step, ahead.
And It’s filling my heart with glum,
But all I do is,
try to wipe the sadness away,
By drowning my night,
in a bottle of rum.
-Tired.
-Abhishek Gupta.