There used to be a time when I had
someone in my life whom I used to
ask to send me voice notes, because
that person’s beautiful voice used to
calm down all the turmoils inside my head.
But sadly, people change with time.
Their voice might not change, but they
change. And when people change, no matter
how much you used to love them, you won’t
even feel like listening to their voice again.
-Abhishek Gupta
I know who’s my
genuine friend
and who’s not.
I know who stood
by my side when
I had hit rock bottom,
and I know who did not.
It’s so strange, those
who who always used
to claim to have my back
were never to be found
when I needed them.
So I know, who’s
my genuine friend,
and who’s not.
-Abhishek Gupta
So many people, whom I
used to talk to all the time.
So many people, with whom I
used to spend so much of time.
We treat each others like
complete strangers now.
The sad is part is, nothing
went wrong between us.
We simply grew apart.
We grew so apart, that now,
it feels like we never
even knew each other.
It’s like we never even met.
-Abhishek Gupta
My heart aches, every time
I think that you’ll never know
how much love I have for you,
in my heart. You look for this kind of love
everywhere else, in everyone else,
but you never look for it, in me.
I guess I’ll never be the one for you,
and I’m tired of being treated
like an option. I guess this is
where we part our ways.
The love you crave for,
was right in front of you.
If only you’d have opened
your eyes and seen it, but it’s okay.
This is how life works.
It’s time, for me to bid
you a final goodbye.
-Abhishek Gupta
Ever woke up in the middle of the night, after a dream in which you were still together with that person who broke your heart and crushed it? You were happy in that dream. But then you wake up smiling, and after a few seconds you realise it was just a dream and then the bitter memories hit you back, it hits you real hard and then, you just breakdown in the middle of the night. Sobbing uncontrollably, until you get so exhausted that you fall asleep, again.
It breaks you from inside.
-Abhishek Gupta
How have you been?
Let’s catch up,
have some wine,
and conversate,
about how we always
trying to impersonate,
and trying to be
someone we’re not.
We are slowly
becoming
who we hate.
Life’s been hell lately,
but we tell everyone
it’s going great.
My mind, right now, is in
a pretty messed up state.
But I’m holding on, somehow,
telling myself to wait.
Wait for something good to happen,
something which’ll really be great.
Which’ll pull me out of
this miserable state.
But Hey,
how have YOU been?
Let’s catch up,
have some wine,
and conversate.
-Abhishek Gupta
I loved someone once, with all my heart and soul. I’d have laid down my life for that person happily. That person meant the world to me. I met that someone during my darkest time, and that person pulled me out of the darkness, promising to be the light of my life. But in the end it didn’t matter, for that person pulled me out of the darkness just to drown me in the ocean of darkness later on. Oh, and I don’t know how to swim. That person knew this. I was left devastated and broken.
I trusted a friend once. Whom I considered a close confidante. Shared my life, my secrets and emotions. I do not open up to someone emotionally so easy, but I trusted this person. My friend was there, when I was drowning in the ocean of darkness. My friend, whom I treated like a brother, was that pillar of strength for me, because of whom I swam my way back to the ocean surface and eventually reached the shore. My friend, he was all that I was left with, when everyone abandoned me because of my deteriorating mental health. But one day, it turned out, he broke my trust too. He had his reasons to stick by my side. Once again, someone helped me to subside my demons just to throw me back to them at double the velocity I got away from them. Once again, I was left devastated and broken.
Devastated and broken? Yes. But am I still here, pretty much alive and still kickin’ ass? Hell yeah. Life knocked me down, and I got back up, and I always will. Because that’s what we’re supposed to do. Some people will see it this way, how devastated and broken I was, I still am somewhat. But I chose to see the good and bad, both. They broke me, but before they broke me, they helped me heal, too. So, no. I don’t have any hatred for them in my heart. I have no ill thoughts for them, because I learned an important lesson about life, because of them.
I learned that, no matter how hard life knocks us down, it’s “us” who decides whether we can get back up or not. Even if the world says, you won’t be able to get back up after that hit you took. YOU CAN GET BACK UP. All you need to do is BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. You’re a warrior and a warrior
NEVER
EVER
BACKS
DOWN.
-Abhishek Gupta
No matter how low,
unconfident you feel.
All you need is just
one glance of your
Mother’s smiling face,
and you’ll regain all your
strength back, to face
every obstacle thrown
at you by life and win.
// Thank you Maa //
-Abhishek Gupta
Tw: suicidal motifs.
I run through the sand, I stride.
So desperate to get away.
So desperate to hide.
I run towards the waves.
They’re calling me home.
They say, my soul,
only they can save.
I know, this is the end.
I’m running towards my grave.
But I trust them, I believe.
My soul, only they can save.
Once they pull me, inside.
Inside, I won’t have to run,
desperately trying to hide.
Inside, there’ll be no tears.
Inside, I’ll never have to
remember the times,
when I was left alone,
the times, when I cried.
I’m telling myself
Don’t be afraid.
I’m telling myself
Don’t be afraid.
It’s time, it’s time.
We’re going home.
-Abhishek Gupta
Is zindagi ke safar mein,
ek nadi ki tarah main
humesha behta chala gaya.
Har gham, har dhokhe,
Jo mile mujhe,
mere hi apnon se,
Main chup chap,
sab yoon sehta chala gaya.
Par na maani haar
zindagi mein kabhi,
Kamzor nahi hoon,
na jhukunga kabhi,
Aisa main khud ko har pal
har lamha kehta chala gaya.
Aisa main khud ko har pal
har lamha kehta chala gaya.
Gira hoon zindagi ke har
padaav mein,
kabhi na kabhi.
Par kabhi ruka nahi.
Humesha utha aur
aage badhta gaya.
Log aksar tanha chhod
Jaate hai is safar mein,
Isi ka naam zindagi hai.
Aisa main apne toote dil
ko kehta chala gaya.
Is zindagi ke safar mein,
Ek nadi ki tarah main
humesha behta chala gaya.
Ek nadi ki tarah main
humesha behta chala gaya.
-Abhishek Gupta.