Love

Pretentious.

There’s a difference between,

Luxurious and Exorbitant lifestyle.

Why do we need to show,

that we have an extraordinary life,

a life, better than the rest of the humans?

A baller, leads an extravagant life,

and it’s something understandable,

but why do we need to pretend, 

pretend to be a baller, 

when we’re not, what’s the catch?

Ordinary people, we all are,

Ordinary, is our lifestyle,

and it is not something 

we should be ashamed of, 

why should we be?

The most successful people,

Those billionaires you know,

you’ve heard of, who have become,

what they’re today, by sheer struggle,

did you know, prefers to live, a minimalist life.

‘Cause, it’s beautiful.

‘Cause, it’s amazing.

‘Cause, it’s quintessential.

– Don’t be pretentious.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Tired soul.

I never restrained myself,

from loving my people.

Love is feeling, that brings bliss,

in your life, in others life.

This is what I used to think, before.

This is what I believed in, before.

But people always tend to prove me, wrong.

Every moment in life, when I loved, someone,

all I got in return was betrayal and suffering.

Was it my fault, to expect from people,

whom I loved and thought they loved me, too?

Tired, I am of these people now.

Here, now, I sit beneath this tree,

Under its shadow, I feel, now, so free,

Under its shadow, I, now realise,

All people, whom I love, do is hurt me.

– Tired soul.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Breathe.

Why to stress over things,
things which is not even worth,
your time, your energy?
Why to stress over people,
people who broke you,
hurt you, brought you pain?
Why to stress over, anything,
that’s not ever going to change?

Why would you take stress,
knowing it’s not going to help you,
knowing that you’re going to fall
into that self made delf of torment.
Stop, thinking, about things,
you cannot change, you cannot mend.
Stop, ’cause you’re just making
everything​ harder, for your ownself​.

– Breathe.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Do not give up.

I know, you’re tired.

I know, it’s been tough.

Life has become so rough.

Betrayal, sorrow, despair.

I, too, know how it feels.

Life has been testing you,

Life always does that.

After a stormy night, 

Dawns a sun, beautiful and bright.

So, do not give up, my friend.

Not so easily, not without a fight.

Do not give up. Look up into the sky. 

You see those thunderous clouds there?

Once these clouds disappear. 

You will see, you will see, not afar, 

Is the sky, the moon and the stars.

– Hope.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Understand yourself.

Others, are not going to understand.

Others, are not going to hold your hand.

Others, are an amalgamation, of both, fair and foul.

They’re like a pack of wolves, always ready to howl.

Some, will stand​ by your side, and,

some, will become your adversaries.

Not everyone is going to understand, you.

Not everyone has a heart, as kind as yours.

You will face, ado, on every step that you’ll take.

Failure, you might face, you will face, at times.

Malaise, that might make you feel,

it might make you feel like giving up, 

but never, ever, let these thoughts, consume you.

Take control over your mind​, my friend.

Brace yourself, for this first, for you need to.

Brace yourself, to face failure, for you will.

Brace yourself, for you need to make yourself

strong, so that you don’t give up, in the end.

Others, will face, yes, they will, what’s in their fate.

But first, my friend, you need to understand, 

understand yourself, ’cause others, can wait.

– Fight for justice.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Answer me.

Afar, we were, for a long time.

Afar, we were, for you walked away.

Love, is what I thought, we had for each other.

Here, you were, with me, in my days,

in my days, when they were bright.

But, you hurled me away, left me, when

I was facing the darkest time of my life?

Never, you came back, 

Never, you explained,

why you wreaked havoc on me?

My love, this heart, belonged to you,

and you crushed it into pieces,

leaving this wreckage behind,

this wreckage of misery.

Today, here, I see you, 

Today, here, I see you,

with someone, you say, you love.

Isn’t that, exactly, what you once,

used to tell me, too?

Answers, I want from you.

‘Cause, I deserve to know, why,

why did I suffer so much,

why did you put me through

those torments that tore me apart?

Answers, I want from you.

‘Cause, you walked away, so quietly,

without saying a word, vanished, from my life,

as if we, us, together, never existed, leaving,

not even a single, not even a single, trace.

Answers, I want from you.

‘Cause, now that we’re here,

right here, standing, face to face.

– Agony.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Love is a gamble.

I love you. I really do.

But I’ll not ruin my life.

Not again, not this time.

Love never has brought

anything good to me.

It has always been a source

of sorrow and despair, for me.

My heart has been broken by those,

who said they loved me.

My trust has been broken by those,

Who said they’d never break it.

Tired, I am, of these betrayals.

Tired, I am, of my heart being broken.

Tired, I am, of my unfortunate destiny.

I know, giving chances to people is good.

I wish, I could’ve given you, another one.

But, my love, I cannot, for now, I am done

I love you. I really do.

But I’ll not ruin my life.

Not again, not this time.

– Love is a gamble.

– Abhishek Gupta.

I care.

I care.

I still care.

My bipolarity overpowers me.

Yesterday, there was no love, no care,

but, today I feel it, again, that I care.

I care about you, even though,

It doesn’t matter to you, 

if I’m alive or am I dead.

I care, because, there’s still,

some love left inside of me.

It terrifies me how much I care.

I would still do anything for you.

I care.

I still care.

– Love is evil.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Never surrender.

Intimidating, some situations might be.

Intimidating, some people might be.

No matter, how excruciated you feel.

No matter, how vulnerable you feel.

Nothing should stop you.

Neither the pain, nor the paranoia.

Not even you, yourself.

Nothing should stop you.

Go, you shall win.

Go, for no one can stop you.

It’s the fear, your fear, overpowering​ you.

Retaliate and kill, this fear, which dwells within.

Without any further ado, go and fight.

It’s not going to be easy, I never said that,

but, you shall win, for, you need to win.

Giving up, is not what your father taught you.

Giving up, is not what your mother raised you for.

Rise, fight, like a fighter. You might stumble.

You might fall. It’s okay, get up and stand

on your feet, every time, when you fall down, but

– Never surrender.

– Never surrender.

– Abhishek Gupta.

Regret.

I don’t regret you.​

I don’t, for you were once my muse.

You still are, but now,

the reasons have changed.

I, then, used to write for you, love.

I, now, write to get rid of the pain.

The pain, the suffering, 

you brought upon me.

– I don’t regret you.

– Abhishek Gupta.