Khwab
चल मेरे संग,
आ ख़्वाब देखते है।
तू रूबरू हो मेरे ख़्वाब से,
मैं रूबरू होता हूँ तेरे ख़्वाब से।
संग संग प्रयास करते है।
एक दूसरे के ख़्वाब को,
हक़ीक़त में तब्दील करने की।
चल मेरे संग,
आ ख़्वाब देखते है।
-Abhishek Gupta
Drunk
Liquor in my hand.
I haven’t been drunk
for quite a while now.
I remember the last time I
held a liquor in my hand,
I drowned myself in it,
thinking it would help me,
to forget everything.
I feel like drowning
myself again.
But I know it won’t
help me, because,
it didn’t help me
the last time.
I’m drowning
in my sorrow.
-Abhishek Gupta
Money/Happiness
We say all the time,
Money doesn’t matter.
Money can’t buy happiness.
But deep within, we all know
that we say this
to make ourselves
feel better about
ourselves and our life.
Truth is,
Money is all
that matters,
in 21st century.
-Abhishek Gupta
Chaos
I miss myself at times.
I miss the person I once
used to be, before that
chaos tumbled
my life down.
A chaos
called
Love.
-Abhishek Gupta
Short Story
Short story : I’ve always been an animal lover. I used to keep stray cats and kittens at home and feed them all the time. I still do that. But my “actual pets” were Phoebe and Kiki. This cute girl on my shoulder here is Kiki. Oh, and I kept her name Kiki before even that Kiki song came out. Just saying. I used to take in abandoned kitties, foster them and then wait for someone to adopt them. I’ve been like this since my childhood. But last year, something very unfortunate happened. My body developed an allergy towards cats. Imagine you developing an allergy towards something you love the most. Heartbreaking, right? But that’s my life now. My friends have adopted Phoebe and Kiki from me(they’re in bombay now), and now they’re living a happy life. I still pet cats whenever I see them. But now, I cannot keep them with me. Moral of the story is, love the things you have right now, live your life happily with everything/everyone you have in your life right now, because you never know what’s going to happen tomorrow.
-Abhishek Gupta
Tabaahi
Galti teri nahi.
Galti meri thi.
Ke bharosa kiya tujhpe.
Pak tha dil ka.
Shayad isliye tere lafzon par
Yakeen kar
kafan baandh apne
tabahi ki oor chal baitha.
Aur us tabaahi ka naam
Ishq tha.
-Abhishek Gupta
New Day
A new day, a new beginning.
Close the chapter of negativity
from yesterday and reboot yourself.
Start afresh with positivity.
-Abhishek Gupta
Happiness
Stop trying to seek happiness.
Stop being so hard on yourself.
When you’re sad, be sad.
Don’t force yourself to be happy.
Your sadness will eventually subside.
And you will start smiling again.
Always remember this.
You don’t find happiness.
Happiness finds you.
-Abhishek Gupta
Farewell
I felt it, last night.
Your absence.
Again.
I felt it, even when I was asleep.
I was probably dreaming about us.
Anxiety kicked in, and I woke up.
As soon as my eyes opened,
I panicked and screamed,
“Where are you? Where did you go?”
And then I sobbed.
I sobbed for a whole hour,
From 3 am to 4 am,
when I realised,
You weren’t a part of my life anymore,
when I realised,
I was not your man, anymore.
For you chose to break all our promises,
We made that night at the church.
I remember it all.
I remember all your promises.
I remember every word you said.
I remember it all.
Since that night,
when you chose to leave me.
I haven’t had a peaceful sleep.
It’s like I’m in a state of dementia,
Where I wake up every night,
after dreaming of us, together,
only to find out that we’re not,
and what I saw, was just a dream.
I don’t know for how long I’ll be
able to hold myself together.
I’m exhausted now.
I’m stuck in this world,
which exists in my head.
I don’t know
what’s real anymore.
But I have to survive.
For now I have to
handle it all myself.
For I know you won’t
be around anymore.
This was probably
the hardest thing my
heart had to go through.
Probably because I believed
each and every promise you made.
Probably because you were
my hardest goodbye.
I hope he treats you better, than I did.
I hope he loves you more, than I did.
I hope you never have to go through
a heartbreak, like I did.
I hope, someday,
you will realize,
what you did.
-Farewell, love.
-Abhishek Gupta
This Time
This time,
I won’t let anyone
take away this smile
and my happiness, from me.
This time,
I’m going to rise
back up, stronger.
This time,
I won’t let anyone
break my heart.
This time,
I will protect it,
and I’ll protect myself,
because this time,
I won’t let anyone
take away this smile
and my happiness, from me.
-Abhishek Gupta