my fitful motifs

Validation

I might get a lot of hate for this, but it’s okay. I’m cool with it. I have a message for all the guys and girls as well. Don’t get too much influenced by these perfect looking Instagrammers, fashion/make-up bloggers & influencers. Watch them, enjoy and learn the tricks and all, but don’t think for one second, “Oh this is what perfection looks like” “I want to be perfect like this”. They are not perfect, that is why they need materials to make them look perfect. Behind all that make up/cool apparels is a guy/girl just as normal as you and I. And being normal doesn’t mean you’re not perfect. You’re perfect the way you are, never ever think that you’re less than anyone. You’re a perfect 10. Alright? Guys, don’t expect your girl to look like these influencers all the time, because that’s not what reality looks like, accept this, and girls, you don’t need to do this for any guy’s validation. Do it for yourself, not for others. But also don’t forget this thing, that all of these things just enhances your body features, but you’re already perfect Be yourself. Be confident.

-Abhishek Gupta.

I Feel Nothing

I’ve lost so many people in my life, whom I loved from the core of my heart, that now I’ve become numb.

I’m not saying I’m saint and that I never made mistakes. I made mistakes, I overreacted in situations which could’ve been handled maturely, but I paid a heavy toll for my sensitive nature. I lost friends, who were precious to me more than myself.

But I tried to mend things, even though I was partly at fault. I decided to give them my love again, I tried to mend everything, but they refused it. Their ego didn’t let them accept their mistakes, so I ended up being hurt, all over again.

So yes, now, I don’t feel anything when I cut off people from my life, or if people cut me off from their life, because I’ve had enough of it, people playing with my feelings. My heart, now, is an abyss of nothingness. So those friends who ask me all the time, why did I change? Y’all are the reason I became what I am today.

-Abhishek Gupta

Thanks Dad

I leave my work pressure, stress, anger and frustration behind once I leave my office after a whole day of work. I tend to not bring the negativity of the outside world in my home, which is the only place where I find love, peace of mind and happiness. My father taught me this lesson in life that home is supposed to be a safe space for you, so never bring the negativity here and spread it to your family, friends and loved ones.

Thank you for teaching me this dad.

-Abhishek Gupta

Alfaaz

मैं रहूँ या ना रहूँ, मेरे ये अल्फ़ाज़ हमेशा रहेंगे।
और जबतक ये रहेंगे, ये अल्फ़ाज़ तुमसे कहेंगे,
के मुस्कुरा कर ही जिया है इस ज़िंदगी को हुमेशा हमने,
और मुस्कुरा कर ही इस दास्ताँ-ए-ग़म को भी हम सहेंगे।

-Abhishek Gupta

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Past Present Future

You can never go back to what you were. I can never go back to what I was. Our experiences change us. We evolve mentally, physically and emotionally with time. You need to accept yourself the way you’re now. Don’t think of the past, the things which made you happy. It’s in the past. Those people, those things which used to make you happy, aren’t there anymore. So find happiness in the things, the people you have now. Let bygones be bygones. Focus of present, because your present will shape your future. Always remember this.

-Abhishek Gupta

Hope

We don’t always get what we want, what we deserve. Not everyone is lucky. I’ve struggled a lot in my life, and I’m still struggling. I had dreams. Big ass dreams. Couldn’t fulfill all of it. Because that’s life. Sometimes we don’t get what we want, so we need to learn to find happiness in what we have. If we are destined to do something big in life, we will do it, when the time is right. There’s a phrase in Hindi, which we need to learn by heart and respect it, “waqt se pehle, aur naseeb se zada kisi ko kuch nahi milta”. I’m not trying to demotivate any of you here. I am just telling you to face the truth. And keep working hard, so that someday you will reach that point in your life where you can actually try to fulfill all your dreams and live your life the way you always wanted to live. Accept the reality, but never lose hope. Hope is what keeps the fire within us, alive.

-Abhishek Gupta

Never Lose Hope

You’ll fall. You’re supposed to fall. That is inevitable. ‘Sometimes’ you have people around you, who will help you, to get up, but mostly this is not the case. You fall down. You’re hurt. You feel like giving up. But that’s what life is all about. So get used to it. Get used to of falling down and getting hurt. Because that’s how we learn and evolve. And then, you pick yourself up. You guide yourself. You LEARN from your mistakes. Always remember this, “the people you expect to be around, will not always be around, so you need to trust only one person, and that one person is YOU”. When it’s dark, you light your way and guide yourself home. People are temporary. YOU are constant, in your life. Trust yourself. Believe in yourself. No matter how hard it gets, never lose hope.

-Abhishek Gupta

Read more about the article Patthar Dil Insaan

Patthar Dil Insaan

Agar tab hum nadaan na hote.
Agar tab zindagi me aaye
wo toofan na hote.
Agar tab sath wo kuch
galat insaan na hote.
Nazarandaaz na kar paye jise,
Hue waise kuch apmaan na hote.
Toh shayad aaj hum logo
Ki nazron me yoon patthar dil
Insaan na hote.

Agar hume na mile hote wo dhoke.
kiye te Kasme vaade ke rahenge
Hum sath humesa, ek hoke.
Par ant me hua wahi na,
Ke hume akele sab sehna pada,
Kabhi hass ke, toh kabhi ro ke.

Ishq ki baat nahi kar raha hoon.

Pyar ka matlab sirf ishq nahi hota hai.
Pyar ke toh Anek prakaar ke hote hai.

Koi behen bankar,
Toh koi bhai bankar,
Koi dost bankar,
Koi mehboob bankar pyar deta.

Par jab in rishto ki dor toot jati hai na.
Toh is gham ko baant ne wala
Sath mein, Koi na rehta.

Shayad isliye log patthar dil ban jate hai.
Galti unki nahi, wo toh bas, apne aap ko
Us taklif ke samandar se bachaate hai.
Us taklif ke samandar se bachaate hai.

Aur ant me baat wahi pe aati hai.
Agar tab hum nadaan na hote.
Agar tab zindagi me aaye
wo toofan na hote.
Agar tab sath wo kuch
galat insaan na hote.
Nazarandaaz na kar paye jise,
Hue waise kuch apmaan na hote.
Toh shayad aaj hum logo
Ki nazron me yoon patthar dil
Insaan na hote.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Happy Or Unhappy?

I understand, that you want to make everyone happy and not hurt them. But, you need to understand too, that you can’t make everyone happy. Because sometimes, doing what makes you happy, might make someone unhappy. Don’t make others happy, at the cost of your own happiness.

-Abhishek Gupta.

Bloom

You might still love and miss some toxic people who were once in your life, I know this because I do, but you need to not let the vulnerability take control of you. They were cut off from your life, because they were toxic, so let them stay that way, and you bloom like a flower.

-Abhishek Gupta.