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I Feel Nothing

I’ve lost so many people in my life, whom I loved from the core of my heart, that now I’ve become numb.

I’m not saying I’m saint and that I never made mistakes. I made mistakes, I overreacted in situations which could’ve been handled maturely, but I paid a heavy toll for my sensitive nature. I lost friends, who were precious to me more than myself.

But I tried to mend things, even though I was partly at fault. I decided to give them my love again, I tried to mend everything, but they refused it. Their ego didn’t let them accept their mistakes, so I ended up being hurt, all over again.

So yes, now, I don’t feel anything when I cut off people from my life, or if people cut me off from their life, because I’ve had enough of it, people playing with my feelings. My heart, now, is an abyss of nothingness. So those friends who ask me all the time, why did I change? Y’all are the reason I became what I am today.

-Abhishek Gupta

Thanks Dad

I leave my work pressure, stress, anger and frustration behind once I leave my office after a whole day of work. I tend to not bring the negativity of the outside world in my home, which is the only place where I find love, peace of mind and happiness. My father taught me this lesson in life that home is supposed to be a safe space for you, so never bring the negativity here and spread it to your family, friends and loved ones.

Thank you for teaching me this dad.

-Abhishek Gupta

Alfaaz

मैं रहूँ या ना रहूँ, मेरे ये अल्फ़ाज़ हमेशा रहेंगे।
और जबतक ये रहेंगे, ये अल्फ़ाज़ तुमसे कहेंगे,
के मुस्कुरा कर ही जिया है इस ज़िंदगी को हुमेशा हमने,
और मुस्कुरा कर ही इस दास्ताँ-ए-ग़म को भी हम सहेंगे।

-Abhishek Gupta

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Past Present Future

You can never go back to what you were. I can never go back to what I was. Our experiences change us. We evolve mentally, physically and emotionally with time. You need to accept yourself the way you’re now. Don’t think of the past, the things which made you happy. It’s in the past. Those people, those things which used to make you happy, aren’t there anymore. So find happiness in the things, the people you have now. Let bygones be bygones. Focus of present, because your present will shape your future. Always remember this.

-Abhishek Gupta

Hope

We don’t always get what we want, what we deserve. Not everyone is lucky. I’ve struggled a lot in my life, and I’m still struggling. I had dreams. Big ass dreams. Couldn’t fulfill all of it. Because that’s life. Sometimes we don’t get what we want, so we need to learn to find happiness in what we have. If we are destined to do something big in life, we will do it, when the time is right. There’s a phrase in Hindi, which we need to learn by heart and respect it, “waqt se pehle, aur naseeb se zada kisi ko kuch nahi milta”. I’m not trying to demotivate any of you here. I am just telling you to face the truth. And keep working hard, so that someday you will reach that point in your life where you can actually try to fulfill all your dreams and live your life the way you always wanted to live. Accept the reality, but never lose hope. Hope is what keeps the fire within us, alive.

-Abhishek Gupta

Never Lose Hope

You’ll fall. You’re supposed to fall. That is inevitable. ‘Sometimes’ you have people around you, who will help you, to get up, but mostly this is not the case. You fall down. You’re hurt. You feel like giving up. But that’s what life is all about. So get used to it. Get used to of falling down and getting hurt. Because that’s how we learn and evolve. And then, you pick yourself up. You guide yourself. You LEARN from your mistakes. Always remember this, “the people you expect to be around, will not always be around, so you need to trust only one person, and that one person is YOU”. When it’s dark, you light your way and guide yourself home. People are temporary. YOU are constant, in your life. Trust yourself. Believe in yourself. No matter how hard it gets, never lose hope.

-Abhishek Gupta

Chameleon.

Humans are somewhat like a chameleon.
The only difference between
a chameleon and human is that
It changes color to save itself,
Whilst humans change colors,
to harm others.
In disguise, they’ll come.
Friend or Foe.
You’ll never know.
– Keep your eyes open.
– Abhishek Gupta.

Be truthful.

Why lying to someone, anyone,
that you love them, care about them,
When you have no such feelings, in actuality?
Why faking that love, that care, that affection,
When you don’t have it for that person?
What’s the point of being hideous here?
You tell them, that you care,
and that person believes you,
and then, what do you do?
You shun them when they need you.
You break their heart, for you lied, to them.
Why this duality?
Embrace what you are.
You don’t like somebody?
You don’t want that somebody, to be around?
Tell them, that you don’t want them.
But don’t be a dual faced person,
Who makes the life of others, miserable.
How would you feel, if someone,
you consider your own, someone you love,
someone you think care about you,
would do the same with you?
Feeling it, yet?
That emotional breakdown,
That feeling of betrayal,
That trust being getting
hammered into pieces?
Stop being frivolous.
Embrace your reality.
Embrace yourself.
Be truthful, to yourself,
and to others.
Love is divine.
Or at least it is considered.
So don’t make it dirty,
with your heinous acts.
– Love and be loved.
– Abhishek Gupta.

Breathe.

Why to stress over things,
things which is not even worth,
your time, your energy?
Why to stress over people,
people who broke you,
hurt you, brought you pain?
Why to stress over, anything,
that’s not ever going to change?

Why would you take stress,
knowing it’s not going to help you,
knowing that you’re going to fall
into that self made delf of torment.
Stop, thinking, about things,
you cannot change, you cannot mend.
Stop, ’cause you’re just making
everything​ harder, for your ownself​.

– Breathe.

– Abhishek Gupta.