Letter
To,
The person whom I once loved.
I have nothing but hatred in my heart, for you, but underneath this charade of hatred, there’s still some love left, for you, and it always will.
With love,
Abhishek Gupta.
Silence
Silence is the most
confusing gesture.
It’s the sign of,
love and hatred, both.
You’ll never know,
what’s actually going
on in a person’s mind.
-Abhishek Gupta.
My Crippling Depression
It follows me everywhere I go.
It never ever leaves me alone.
From morning till night.
It’s always lingering around me.
I stay alone, but I’m never really alone.
It sleeps beside me, every single night.
I repeat, I stay alone.
So sometimes, it’s frightening.
It so frightening, that it sends,
Shivers down my spine.
I hyperventilate.
I cannot think straight.
My head starts brimming,
with thoughts, sick and grim.
I cannot concentrate.
The light in my eyes,
Starts getting dim.
I fall, but I’m still standing.
I feel I’m going to die, alone.
Now I’m panicking, even more.
My eyes start getting shut,
I try to stay awake, but i cannot.
So I just lie down and
then i go into a shock.
Darkness lingers in front of my eyes.
Then, I sleep. I sleep, for a long fuckin’ time.
And When i wake up, I see myself,
Drenched in sweat, still panicking,
Blood rushing to my head.
But I thank God, for I’m not, dead.
I do no drugs,
Not anymore.
I’ve been clean, from a long long time.
But IT has affected so much.
So much that now, again,
I doubt my sobriety.
It never ever leaves me alone.
My crippling depression
And this fuckin’ anxiety.
-Abhishek Gupta
Comfort
You never tried.
So you failed.
But does it
even count
as a failure,
if you never tried?
No, it doesn’t.
You didn’t fail.
You brought shame,
upon your name,
upon your father’s name.
Life is not easy.
It never will be.
So crawl out of
your comfort.
Only then,
You’ll thrive.
-Abhishek Gupta
Complexed
Your problems,
multiplied by your fear,
is equal to the anxiety
attack you experience.
If only, instead of multiplying it
by fear, you’d divide it by efforts,
your life would become
less complexed.
-Abhishek Gupta
Numaaish
Us dard-e-dil ka
maza hi kya jiski
numaaish aap
puri duniya mein
karte firein.
Kabhi kabhi dard sehna
zaruri hota hai, aye dost.
Insaan zindagi ke
asliyat se roobaroo
tab hi hota hai.
-Abhishek Gupta
Patthar Dil Insaan
Agar tab hum nadaan na hote.
Agar tab zindagi me aaye
wo toofan na hote.
Agar tab sath wo kuch
galat insaan na hote.
Nazarandaaz na kar paye jise,
Hue waise kuch apmaan na hote.
Toh shayad aaj hum logo
Ki nazron me yoon patthar dil
Insaan na hote.
Agar hume na milte wo dhoke.
Kasme vaade kiye te ke rahenge
Sath humesa, ek hoke.
Par ant me hua wahi na,
Ke hume sab sehna pada,
Kabhi hass ke, toh kabhi ro ke.
Sirf ek tarah ke pyar
ki baat nahi hai aye dost,
Pyar ke toh Anek prakaar ke hote hai.
Koi behen bankar,
Toh koi bhai bankar pyar deta,
Koi dost bankar,
Koi mehboob bankar pyar deta.
Par jab in rishto ki dor toot jati hai.
Toh us gham ko baant ne wala
Sath mein, aye dost, Koi nahi rehta.
Shayad isliye log patthar dil ban jate hai.
Galti unki nahi, wo toh bas, apne aap ko
Us taklif ke samandar se bachaate hai.
Us taklif ke samandar se bachaate hai.
-Abhishek Gupta.
Grave
She used to tell me
that she couldn’t
live without me?
I tried to find her grave,
everywhere, after she
broke my heart, and,
left me here, alone,
with this void heart.
But I never found it.
-Abhishek Gupta.
Lost
I’ve lost the track of time.
I’ve lost the track of life.
Baffled amongst these
Exorbitant corrupted humans.
Who have even corrupted,
The purest creation of all, love.
I have even lost the track,
That where’s my life heading,
in this dark, dark world?
-Abhishek Gupta.
Be fierce
Be fierce.
Be bold.
Be wise.
Speak up your mind.
But also remember,
your words have the
power to hurt people
around you. So,
use them, wisely.
Be fierce.
Be bold.
Be wise.
-Abhishek Gupta.