So many people, whom I
used to talk to all the time.
So many people, with whom I
used to spend so much of time.
We treat each others like
complete strangers now.
The sad is part is, nothing
went wrong between us.
We simply grew apart.
We grew so apart, that now,
it feels like we never
even knew each other.
It’s like we never even met.
-Abhishek Gupta
I loved someone once, with all my heart and soul. I’d have laid down my life for that person happily. That person meant the world to me. I met that someone during my darkest time, and that person pulled me out of the darkness, promising to be the light of my life. But in the end it didn’t matter, for that person pulled me out of the darkness just to drown me in the ocean of darkness later on. Oh, and I don’t know how to swim. That person knew this. I was left devastated and broken.
I trusted a friend once. Whom I considered a close confidante. Shared my life, my secrets and emotions. I do not open up to someone emotionally so easy, but I trusted this person. My friend was there, when I was drowning in the ocean of darkness. My friend, whom I treated like a brother, was that pillar of strength for me, because of whom I swam my way back to the ocean surface and eventually reached the shore. My friend, he was all that I was left with, when everyone abandoned me because of my deteriorating mental health. But one day, it turned out, he broke my trust too. He had his reasons to stick by my side. Once again, someone helped me to subside my demons just to throw me back to them at double the velocity I got away from them. Once again, I was left devastated and broken.
Devastated and broken? Yes. But am I still here, pretty much alive and still kickin’ ass? Hell yeah. Life knocked me down, and I got back up, and I always will. Because that’s what we’re supposed to do. Some people will see it this way, how devastated and broken I was, I still am somewhat. But I chose to see the good and bad, both. They broke me, but before they broke me, they helped me heal, too. So, no. I don’t have any hatred for them in my heart. I have no ill thoughts for them, because I learned an important lesson about life, because of them.
I learned that, no matter how hard life knocks us down, it’s “us” who decides whether we can get back up or not. Even if the world says, you won’t be able to get back up after that hit you took. YOU CAN GET BACK UP. All you need to do is BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. You’re a warrior and a warrior
NEVER
EVER
BACKS
DOWN.
-Abhishek Gupta
My vision is blurry.
I can’t see properly
without my spectacles.
But I still choose not
to wear my spectacles.
For the spectacle I get
when I wear my spectacles,
is of a world filled with
hatred and inhumanity.
Void, I feel, a little more,
every time when I see
where this world’s heading.
-Abhishek Gupta.
Never before, was I, like this.
care and love, that’s all
my heart was filled with.
I showered, all my love, on you.
Happiness, is all that I wanted.
For you. For me.
Now, since you left,
choosing a path,
which led you away from me,
Void, my heart has become.
Void, my life bas become, too.
Feelings, left inside are none.
Null, is the love, left inside me.
Care, I have forgotten, what it means.
I am not, anymore, me.
I am not, anymore, what I used to be.
Changed, I am, I had to, for,
you made me this person, I am, today.
You woke this demon,
who doesn’t care about
anyone, anymore.
Not even about,
himself.
– Apathetic.
– Abhishek Gupta.